Day 42 - 360 days
Updated: Feb 15
Day 42 – 360 days
Non-essential purchases: none
Weight: 64.4 kg – 6.4 kilos in 42 days
Calories: I didn’t track my calories today – maybe about 1500???
Alcohol: none (day 42 of 42)
Exercise: day of rest
I fell asleep when watching an episode of Gilmore Girls with the kids this afternoon. They didn’t want to wake me, but I woke anyway as they were turning off the television. It was 5.45 pm. Instead of fighting it, we all went to bed. The kids to read, me to dream.
Sleep, rest, and dreaming
A 360-days musing......
I am increasingly making more decisions about what I don’t want to do, allowing me to do more of what I want to do. I never anticipated that part of this 360-days journey which is ultimately the final stage of a journey I have been travelling for almost a decade would allow me to slow down. Slow down to the point of falling asleep in the lounge room and, waking to my kids tiptoeing around me and being excited at the thought of going to bed and dreaming.
I find the more sleep and rest I get, the more I am aware of what I don’t want to do. I don’t want to say yes to everything. I don’t want to make decisions on a life-long desire to be a people pleaser. I don’t want to be around people who are negative. I don’t want to accept that unconditional love allows for bad behaviour. I don’t want to be so tired that I can’t see the little things. I don’t want to document my life on social media so I can count the likes and put a price on my worth from the reactions of strangers. I don’t want my kids to think it is normal to be married to your device. I don’t want to get to the end of my life and think, shit I was so busy documenting and uploading my life that I forgot to live it.
Right now, I am focusing on sleep, rest, and living in the moment. The more time I have for every little moment, the more grateful I am for each moment that follows.
Sleep allows the body to rest, rest allows the mind to dream, dreams allow us to see a world that makes our heart sing. If we can see it, we can live it. But first to slow down, to sleep, to rest to dream.